05. 04. If you spoke

If You Spoke

Long ago, once you've said, "I love you." You didn't say it second time around.

What was it that you liked about me?

Was it my lack of confidence?

Or my low self-esteem?

I was alone, and you were lonely

And you know how misery loves company

You weren't interested in dating me, you were only interested in having sex with me.

You were looking for something casual, while I wanted something more.

What was it that you liked about me?

Was it, my insecurities?

Or my, vulnerabilities?

I used to think that sex equals love. But, as it turns out, it doesn't, and it hurts.

I thought we were making love, but we weren't, and it breaks my heart.

What was it, that attracted you the most?

Was it, my little weaknesses?

Or my, unworthiness?

I wanted, a true loving and wholesome relationship.

But you led me on, with a one-sided friends with benefits.

What was it, you liked about me?

Was it my, self-consciousness?

Or my, insecurities?

I felt unwavering unconditional love for you, but that made you run away.

Now you want everyone to leave you alone

You say no one understands you

I keep thinking that I'll never see you again

You were filling the void with an old friendship

You don't want "the talk".

But I know you will contact me out of the blue

In other words, I was convenient for you

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You don't see your own importance

You didn't know why I loved you

You never told me what was on your mind

Are you incapable of love?

Why love gratification, and not the person, the human being?

You went and you played with my heartstrings~.

You went and broke them,

And made them, out of tune~.

You don't understand how important you were to me.

You changed your mind about me, then you started dating 2 people.

A man and a woman fought for your heart due to miscommunication.

Doesn't it sound familiar?

Haven't you done this before?

I was, abandoned

You thought I abandoned you first.

So you decided to abandon me for the second time.

Well, you got your petty revenge.

I was left, heartbroken

Penny:

I didn't feel right to tell you because I didn't want to face the consequences of my actions.

It was one of my secrets that I was keeping from you.

I lied when I agreed to let you move in.

I found some people while we were together.

So I moved far away, and found somebody new.

Someone who's more interesting.

I didn't say I love you, because I didn't.

I love sex, the act, not the person.

I was looking for a quick fling.

I just want everyone to leave me alone.

Existing is a curse, and no one understands what it's like to be me.

Lamb:

You will never understand what it's like to be me.

Envious of my looks, but you hold onto your pride.

A greedy polygamous, overtaken by lust.

Consumed by gluttony, living like a sloth.

Fueled by wrath.

We were supposed to live together in a new house, but we didn't.

You were supposed to save me, but you didn't and I'm in pain.

I wasn't saved by, an angel.

I was cursed by, a demon.

I'm sorry for being a disgusting human being 😢😭

You're a coward, shallow, and a bully.

I thought you were mature,

But you're still immature.

My soul was, devoured

But now, I feel more empowered

I have my one and only,

I will be with him forever and always.

He loves me and always has.

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